| Contemplations of daez.... |
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| In late October my beloved daughter Shawna...her hubby and my favorite loc photo model and sweetest SIL on Planet Earth...Raymon....my precious Ray-Ray and her older brother my adorable lil' genius Kyree (Bully to me but the least likely bully you will ever meet...lol..) finally made that big final move to Oklahoma....This is a move they have dreamed of making for the past 3 years...when they went there to visit Raymon's mother who had recently moved there from Denver They fell in love with the place...the beautiful homes they would find and choose from for wayyy less than half the cost of the one they owned in Denver....the woods and clean air their children could grow up surrounded by....the peacefullness and country atmosphere they had both dreamed of living in since their college days....their time had finally come....... I accompanied them on their big move to say my goodbyes....we made a tiny caravan...Raymon and Shawna driving the moving truck and me driving a big beautiful Durango SUV with my lil' ones and the two family dogs....lol... It was kind of a trip for me....because I knew I was losing my right arm.....my joy....my only daughter....to a place I couldn't imagine them wanting to live in but knowing I had to let go with a smile on my face for THEIR peace of mind....They had been telling me all along that they wanted me to come with them...that I would be able to finally afford MY dream house away from this expensive metropolis we ALL had grown up in....Denver....the Mile High City... And when we finally reached Oklahoma City....it seemed like during the last three hours of the ride it slowly came to me WHY they wanted to live in this strange new place....the scenery was beautiful....everything green and pure....And as we drove into the outer boundaries I began to fall in love with what I was seeing....and I knew that I will follow them there ASAP to live MY new dream and start my new life....with my loved ones nearby..... I spent the next two weeks alternating between looking for houses I could afford on my retirement income (there are plenty of them)....and dreading saying goodbye even for a few months...but the joy on my kids faces as they searched for their dream home cannot be denied....they definetly were HOME and so relieved to be there....and I felt so at home I spent a lot of time riding around getting to know the city by myself....and loving what I was seeing... One of the things I wanted to see was the OKC Memorial where the bombing took place in Oklahoma City in 1995.... somehow, I would have felt like I had been remiss if I had not gone there.....I was really surprised that the area was so small compared to the pictures I had seen on television...and compared with the pictures of the World Trade Center...which I never had the opportunity to see except in movies or after the bombing in all the media coverage....this is a little bit of what I saw at the Memorial..... |
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| I walked all around the area....to the huge and beautiful Serenity Pool....to the Chairs of Sorrow for each victim that died in the bombing...TO the Museum but not in it because I don't know if it's open yet....and one thing that was a constant feeling while I was there....SORROW and REALITY....I wanted to take more pictures but the stupid battery in my camera died right after I took these pictures and a few more....I had planned to go back after I got the new batteries and take more pictures, but I knew I had seen enough....there are teddy bears and pictures...key rings and all sort of momento's left by family and friends of the victims....it's truly a sad place.... I kept wondering how someone who was born and raised in this country....someone WHITE who was not poor or mistreated....someone whose ancestors and self had all the privilege of so called supremecy based on the color of their skin....sigh....could do something THIS horrible.....OMG....!!!! And as I looked around I thought about this country of ours....where OUR ancestors were slaves and so many millions of us have no idea WHO they were and never will....I thought about the way our men and women are always on the lookout for police and their racial profiling....how this crazed person was able to stop his van right in front of that building and not a suspicion was raised because of the color of his skin and for that reason only...for if he had been a Black person he would never have been able to walk or run away....and he/THEY wrecked havoc on this simple town with it's simple folk.... I thought about the two snipers who were caught while I was there....I thought about how these Black men went around crazed and raising hell...shooting and killing people randomly....and I am wondering what kind of HELL are THEY going to live in the rest of their lives...... The election came the day after I got back to Denver....and of course the Democrats lost badly...they, the lesser of two evils....and I thought at that time how plain true hell....more than we have EVAH known...is about to erupt in this country of ours...this country that we live in...always fearful...always waiting....for our justice...knowing all along if we banded together we would be able to take some of our power back but not having the courage to go after it....because so many of us are waiting...for what I do not know...but waiting all the while.... And I know in my heart of hearts for sure now that these ARE the Last Days....that this country IS Babylon....can't you feel it....but it's the only country we truly have....and then I felt joy....because I know MY last days will be spent with the ones I love...how about you???.....ya'll say what..... Thank you God for giving me another day of life....AMEN..... |
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